When my friend sent me a text while I was sitting in MOPS last January, I immediately sensed a wave of excitement. I even left early to go home to prepare.
She told me that there was a long-term sub position at the school where my kids attend.
I had been weighing going back to teaching for some time. I can be a grass is greener kind of gal.
I knew that being a long-term sub would provide me the perfect opportunity to get my feet wet again.
My interview was lovely. Truly lovely. How many people can say that about an interview? Meeting with the Principal and Assistant Principal was like have coffee with old friends. Not that it was easy, but it was cordial and pleasant. Kudos to them for knowing how to bring the best out of their applicants.
Walking into a classroom mid-year was a bit challenging, but not nearly as challenging as you might think. Kids have an amazing ability to adjust to new. They are able to embrace new like rock stars. And it was only made better by the fact that I have parent helpers who have become friends rather than just volunteers.
I heart teaching. It is my gig for sure.
However, when a full-time position just became available for next year, I hesitated to apply.
My plan prior to my current position had been to do a hybrid home school program with my boys next year. We are talking about a private charter school (no tuition) where my kids would have art, Spanish, hands-on science, and activities like karate provided by the YMCA.
Despite the natural inclination to pursue the job, I had a lingering, gut-wrenching feeling that it was not what I was supposed to do.
For one reason.
As much as teaching is my gig, these boys are my world. They are still so little and their needs are high.
Time is ticking whether I like it or not and I want to soak up every bit of them before they are taller than me and arguing about curfew.
Plus, I have to admit that I love the idea of an alternative learning experience. It is something I never thought I'd do, but that is how life works in this casa.
And if it doesn't work, I know we can go back to what we were doing. I'm slowly learning to take risks in life and to not be afraid if those risks fail.